Missing you.

Hi Grandma, I miss you so much it hurts. You are, or were I am not so good at this whole past tense thing, the one person in this entire world who love me and was proud of me for everything I did. What I would do to get to call you right now and here your voice to give you an update on my life and to hear you tell me a story. Gosh it's something so simple that I should've cherished more. I love you with my whole entire heart and I am so sorry for making such a mess of my life. I hope you are still proud of me. I love you everyday forever and always.