The little things: I miss you.

What I would do to be able to call you right now. I miss you everyday. When you died a piece of me died. I know that you couldn't live forever. But to me you were frozen in time to live forever. It's hard to explain. You were a part of my entire life from the moment I was born. I never knew a life without you until now. I don't like life without you. I know you are with me in my heart everyday. That doesn't make the pain any less real. I love you with my whole entire heart I hope you can feel my love for you. You are with me forever.

Love Happiness and all other things

Lauren & Greg got married two weeks ago March 16th 2013. I did my reading at the wedding and the entire day was incredible. I know you are so happy for them wherever you are right now. You left footprints on our entire family as far as it extends and more. You would've loved the service so I hope you got to see it. I'd like to think you did. Last weekend was easter. I went home as a last minute decision and got to surprise Aunt Lauren Uncle Greg and Jackie. It was the first family holiday without you there. That was tough. We had our annual egg hunt and dad hid eggs for you to find the "grandma eggs" We could not locate one little green or yellow egg. That one was left for you to pick up. We believe that you did. I know you were there with us that day and everyday. I miss you more than anything. Some days like to today it just really hits me that your not here. That's hard. You have always been here through all eighteen years of my life and now a piece of me is just missing. I know you are with us everyday, I swear I can feel you. Sometimes it just doesn't even feel real that you are gone. I love you with my whole heart and that will never change.